Thursday, June 5, 2008

Amid the quiet....

of the house as I sit alone, I have been contemplating what path I should take.

Logic leads me to think that I have MS, and possibly Lyme(and all the co-infections) TOO.

I read that there are things(within medical tests) I have presently that indicate MS, that do not show up (as far as I can research) in Lyme. I know that Lyme is the "Great Imitator" but can it mimic so well as to hide from 2 neurologists and only be seen by my one OB/gyno/Lyme specialist??? I do not know if my loyalty to the doctor I have seen for 18 years is what is pulling me to doubt the other 2 doctors.....or if knowing that MS is such a severe diagnosis that I want it to be the other.

Sadly in my heart, I feel it is both, and treatment is a difficult situation to deal with then. I am conflicted about this more then the diagnosis of either disease I think.......

Dear Lord, give me the strength and wisdom I know you hold for me to make this decision and know what to do with the information I have been given. Give me peace, and help me work though this situation and medical issue as your will sees to be done. Give my friends and family strength they need to support me and understand the difficult time that I am currently having and may continue to have down the road. You have blessed me with great friends Lord, and a wonderful family! Thank you for all the things you do for us in our lives and the blessings you bestow upon us all, even in times that we may not understand. In your son's precious name, Amen!

1 comment:

Ginger said...

I am praying for you. You have turned it over to God, as I knew you would, and He will not let you down. I am here for you. I wish I could ease some of your pain and frustration, though.